Recently I had to be somewhere very early in the morning. Since I am not fit for human company without my daily walk and latte, I set out on foot before the pitch-black December sky had begun to gray around the edges.
My route took me through a neighborhood where all the households join together during the holidays to hang enormous shiny balls from the trees lining both sides of the street. I could see nothing, except for slivers of silver on each orb, reflecting the dim light from the lone street lamp at the end of the street. I continued on to my favorite café, its bright interior and friendly staff another beacon piercing the dark.
Fortified by my latte and the subtly glowing branches, I headed home to join the early stream of rush hour traffic.
I needed to be out and about before dawn to take my new friend Marcy to chemotherapy. Marcy was given a diagnosis of Stage 4 ovarian cancer and six months to live. That was four and a half years ago, time she has spent traveling all over the country seeking out cutting-edge treatment and clinical trials. These efforts have kept death at bay, but now the cancer is starting to break through even in the midst of grueling regimens.
These are dark times, for Marcy and for a world riddled with problems of such magnitude that sometimes the only way to cope is to withdraw. The season of solstice reflects this. Light is in short supply, and so, at times, is hope. The urge to pull inward is strong.
Yet even though Marcy may be running out of options, her spirit and will to live are strong. So it is in the world as well–joy and kindness abound, relieving despair. As we pass through the darkest time of the year, there are always shimmers of light.
You are making me feel very lucky as I sit here in a cabin in the Sierras, making oatmeal-chocolate chip cookies and watching the fir trees shiver in the sunlight. Very lucky that I, my son and husband are relatively healthy and able to enjoy our time here. Thank you. And now I think I’ll go for a walk while the boys are off skiing. I enjoy spending quality time with myself. :D Happy Holidays!
Thanks, Jilanne. So good that you are savoring these moments!
Yes, Lorrie, beautifully written and expressed. My heart goes out to your fierce friend Marcy, and to you for being a guiding light.
Thanks, Teri.
Lorrie, your writing never fails to move me. Merry Christmas friend!
Thanks, Becca. And to you.
Hard to watch the days get shorter for those we hold dear. You are a good friend to be there for Marcy. I hope that you two find comfort in each other’s company.
Thanks, Heidi. It is a pleasure to be able to help, and there has been a lot of laughter!
These are beautiful solstice and Christmas thoughts. Thank you , Lorrie.
I’m so glad you like it–thanks, Eloise.